Today was a good day.
My hardworking husband was home. We had a fire going. We watched a couple inches of snow come down. I made cookies from scratch for our afternoon snack.
I was able to spend some time getting ‘ahead’ at my income-producing jobs so I will hopefully have a brief reprieve tomorrow to just focus on homemaking.
That is, until beyond tomorrow when more deliverables are due and responsibilities arise.
A small break (our sabbath) helps to alleviate some of my pressure and ensuing anxiety.
Not all of my anxiety, however, is alleviated by working diligently on my To Do List. Some of it is just self-driven. With years of practice.
On days like today, family days that are so beautiful they deserve to be drawn out, I long for memory-making times in which the pressure doesn’t win even for a moment.
Changing behavior and a mindset, though, is arduous work that moves at glacier speed.
And so I’m grateful for today. And I pray to God that tomorrow I can live in the gift of grace which swallows my anxiety when it bubbles up.